Sticky Reality

Insecurities

2012-01-29T02:50:00.003+08:00

New year did not suck but it was neither exciting too. I am just too old for such festive season.

Presentations did not suck as well, and I have finally cleared WISP and TRMK. On my long list of busy schedule, I am still left with Ruyi presentation, SQTR test, AA submission, TP second try and Abacus and study break will be here.

I would rather be at anywhere else than here at this very moment. So physically, mentally and spiritually sick of the routine life. Maybe living in the 80's or 90's weren't that bad despite not having internet and technologies. Le sigh

I really hope that the last stretch of school will be good and well especially Ruyi presentation. And I will be chasing dreams in the second quarter of 2012! I may have plans for my future, but what if they does not happen despite me fighting real hard for it just to happen?

2012-01-22T16:43:00.002+08:00

A night full of laughter and some awkward moments. It was XTINA's 20 birthday party but it feels more like a getogether with the missed ones. I wish everyone was present and XTINA could hang with us more though. Those laughter were genuine and those silent moments were awkward yet comfortable. It all felt the same, the way everyone still are. It feels like we are back to the age of 16. I really miss all of us!

"The ending yet beginning of something new"

Alrighty Steamboat later and explore Prezie! What a CNY eve!

The Right Moment

2012-01-18T21:33:00.004+08:00

Tonight shall be my last late night sleep. The huge burden of projects will be over this Friday. All I will be left with will be presentation(s), Abacus test and SQTR quiz after CNY. It will then be study break and followed by exams and FREEDOM!

Ohmygodd. Honestly, I wonder how I will feel then.

Dream Away

2012-01-13T23:09:00.003+08:00

School had been hectic much. Report submission and presentation starts next week. Had been spending all my night doing PT. And im sick despite it is only the second week of 2012. Le sigh, life of a year 3. Honestly, i freaking want to do well for PT! Not just well but beat the other group? We left a good impression during our first meeting and i guess they are expecting something more from us too? And this will really be my last and final presentation in my poly years. I really hope i will have a good closure and at least have sweet memories about projects and presentation. And i really think that i put in my most most most effort for PT in my entire poly years. Please do not fail me! Make all my sleepless nights and killed brain cells worthwhile.

The good thing about Tumblr is that there are people out there who shares my inner thoughts and it allows me to dream visually. The bad will be it makes me so wanna live my dream in realistic! Like now, i cant wait till i fly to Europe. Walking along the streets, drinking tea while reading at someone cozy, visit all the pretty icons ive been to visually. Dream away~

2012-01-11T04:18:00.000+08:00

Time: 0423

This flu plus sore throat plus swollen eye is torturing me. I can't breathe through my nose yet when i breathe through my mouth the throat gets dry and starts to itch.

I really hope we do well for our projects. Afterall, it is my last sem. May all our effort pay off on the judgement day.

On my bed yet im thinking bout PT.

Three Idiots

2012-01-09T02:58:00.000+08:00

Time: 0303

Just finish watching my first ever bollywood movie - Three Idiots. It is once recommended by YJ and strongly recommended by Evan!! Totally no regrets watching it. It made me see the purpose of studying in a different light. As well as friendship and it makes me wanna be a friend whom one will remember and wants to look for even after a long long time without contact.

Alright i have bcomm tml! Shall head to bed and wish me luck~!!

Goguma Couple

2012-01-03T21:27:00.005+08:00

This post-syndrome is getting bad. I really wish they were still together.

Love the lyrics. So truthful and sincere.

Seriously, guys who are musically incline ...........................

Edit @ 10:43PM
Lots of work to be done but im on tumblr to cure this aching heart. It feels empty.

Edit @ 11:51PM
Shall head to bed with a heavy yet empty heart for my skin to regenerate, according to YongSeo couple. I miss the show and them as a couple....................

Living in my own world

2012-01-02T21:49:00.004+08:00

I've been living in my own world for the past two or three days? I used the com till really late like 4AM then I sleep till 3PM then I continue using the com. What a life~ I miss tumblr!

Oh well, first day of last term of last sem starts tml. Not slightly even excited, cos i foresee a busy Jan plus Feb. If only the holidays continue and I continue living in my own world. lalalalala

Sleep tonight or no sleep tonight? Lets see if i become a panda tml.

Current Addiction: Immortal Classic, Hyorin, YongSeo Goguma Couple, Jung Yong Hwa! ㅋㅋ

Goodbye and Hello

2011-12-31T22:36:00.002+08:00

Last day of 2011, Last 1.5 hours of 2011, Last post on Chocolurvestar of 2011.

2011 was not exactly awesome but it did not suck as well. Good memories will be kept while bad memories will be erased when the clock strike 12. Internship indeed allows me to know what I really want. In one way or another, I am definitely a more matured person than before. Oh well, I am excited for 2012. A brand new year and I am going to graduate. WOOHOO Freedom from studying for the time being. I am so glad that I already have plans to execute after I graduate. Gonna keep my fingers crossed and accomplished every of the plans. No resolution for 2012, but just gonna always remind myself to never regret whatever choices I had made and stay happy every single day.

Things happened, people changed, feelings changed, etc etc etc. When it is the time for these to go, I will let it go.

A Fool's Only Tears

2011-12-28T00:02:00.005+08:00

2006 The Real Concert

2007 The Great Concert

2008 Stand Up @ Japan

2008 Global Warning Tour

2008 Taeyang Hot Concert

2011 Big Show

2011 Love and Hope Tour @ Japan

All-time favourite song!

To seek closure

2011-12-26T23:58:00.002+08:00

The week I hated most every month. Massive cramp and massive flow. Suck being a lady.

4 more days left on 2011 calender. Im always all hyped up at the beginning of the year - writing resolutions, clearing table for a brand new start blah blah blah. At the end, that year is just like any other year. I want 2012 to be different! Honestly, it will be my last poly year and I want to do well for all my projects. I want to graduate with a perfect closure. I want to be motivated to look for a job and save up for my dreams! I want to fly off to Korea for a month, sponsor my parents to go on a trip and to stay in NewZealand independently for a year. 2012 will be the start of a new phase of my life.

I have high hopes for my 2012. Please do not fail me. I am smelling freedom~

A cup of caramel macchiato can really cure this Hypophrenia: A feeling of sadness seemingly without a cause.

Karma

2011-12-20T22:35:00.002+08:00

Suddenly my mom told me that she doubt I will be able to save enough for 2012 Korea Trip. COS she has been collecting parcel at the door almost every single day! HAHAHA Just blame Gmarket!

So many work aka project aka report and research piling! D.A.N.G I am expecting a busy busy Jan and Feb. Deadlines after deadlines AND seriously praying no presentations will be on 7 Feb! If not, i gotta postpone my TP again :c I want my license SOON!!!

Oh well, I wish Big Bang will have some activities during the time we are in Korea. Prolly July/August? *fingers crossed*

PS This xmas feels different.

Flower Boy Ramen Shop

2011-12-13T16:19:00.003+08:00

HoHo Back to my kdrama craze!
12 episodes in 2 days and im head over heels with it! Now, i gotta wait till its out weekly. If only there is live streaming for tvN!!!
Le sigh~ RomCom is still the best!
And actors who can sing (Y)
YoonSanhHyun,HyunBin,LeeDongWook and Jung Il Woo :D

Alright, imma disconnect the com and do some serious yet boring stuff!

We Are Young

2011-12-11T01:00:00.003+08:00

This week's glee made me realise i should stop wishing for graduation and enjoy my last 2 months of school despite the endless projects and assignments.

When Troubletones joined NewDirections, flashback of band times came back. I miss the band geeks and my lady nerds! Its been really long since we all last hang out.

I never want to regret.

Before I Die

2011-11-29T00:38:00.005+08:00

Definitely staying with Evangeline! We've been talking about this since young!
Next will be S & C! It will be like PortDickson's days whereby we will simply eat and rot every single day!
And Hannah,Amirah,SamanthaC! I guess this will come true in NewZealand in 2012? Talk about guys and grocery shopping and eat and laugh and cry?

E-learning week

2011-11-27T22:23:00.003+08:00

E-learning week is a break for students to catch up on their work and projects. But it doesnt work the same way for me... Le sigh All my work is piling and i haven even start on my research paper! im so bloody dead. Oh well, i guess next week will be little sleep and lots of work. im ready to be a pandaaa!

Went to JB on tue with SamanthaC, Hannah and Amirah. Virgin trip. hehe It was fun and the food is so so so so so cheap!! Definitely going back again! Alone to peranakan museum on wed. Virgin trip too. I love museums!!! Going to SAM this coming weekend, alone! Fri was all about meeting deadlines and serious work. Had a bbq over the weekend and Evan came to slumber and we watched No Regrets! Seriously, no regret starting on this drama and thanks to Evan for recommending!!

Seriously, i cant wait for the last week of December! It will be holiday and imma slumber at Evan's and Gramp's crib! It will be party time then! Till then, imma mug and clear my deadlines.

1000th Post

2011-11-18T23:11:00.003+08:00

My 1000 post

5 years and going, chocolurvestar is still alive and regularly updated. In here, there are countless of secrets hidden here and there. One day, I will read back all my archives and laugh at my stupidity and bad English and miss these days.

Oh well, people grow old and life goes on. I miss those who used to be in my life. But now, imma treasure whoever is in and count my blessing.

PS im in a conflict mood.

2011-11-16T14:54:00.001+08:00

Damn. STMO test in 1.5hr. I hope it will be easy and i wont be the only one doodling.

WooHoo Self-declared holiday tomorrow! :D

Once in a lifetime

2011-11-12T00:55:00.002+08:00

I survived 11/11/11 11:11. This is a historic moment! In fact, my 11/11/11 was kinda awesome. School was alright with some drama, lunch was yummy and JiXiang smiled at me (only me!), proposal went well, met the 2 ladies and had a good dinner and dessert and crashing at Nafa's MacLab.

Officially, i declare Friday is my favourite day of the week! :D

Back to GleeS3E5 then to tutorials and projects and individual assignments. Wow, fuck being a year 3.

PS I dont understand why people dont think that 11/11/11 11:11 is a big deal cos it is to me.

PSS I am very addicted to Troubletones's cover of Rumour has it and Someone like you♥

Before I Die

2011-11-07T22:43:00.004+08:00

Back to driving lesson routine. My instructor said i drove well and that makes me feel like punching myself again for driving up that stupid curb...

Ohwell. After driving, he drove to Punggol. It is like a new Marina Barrage with many people flying kites. I missed buying icecream from the truck. I looove the peppermint flavour! Icecream is simply happiness♥ Then drove to ChangiBeach. Walked along the beach and wait for the sun to set. And the view is simply awesome and that is life.

Well, Singapore definitely do not have the prettiest sky as compared to the other countries. But somehow, I think that the sky in the East is so much blue-er and clearer than the West. Or is today just a fine day? Oh well, i simply love the sky and the sea.

Survive Tuesday 9-6 and project after 6pm, Wednesday 9-4 and maybe project after 4pm, Thursday 12-5, Friday 10-4 and maybe project after 4pm THEN imma meet S & C for dinner! This is life - meeting with friends after a long long week.

PS BigBang won the Best Worldwide Act in EMA2011. What can i say? They are simply the best c: They even knock out BritneySpears! HeHe Though your hair colour is kinda bleah, when you smile and get all hyped-up and speak in Engligh, my heart still skipped a beat! BWAHAHAHHAH ♥

I will ride on FirstClass, SkyDived, BungeeJumped, PetAGiraffe, FallInLove, TravelAroundTheWorld.

New Zealand

2011-11-04T23:45:00.002+08:00

Seems like there is a change in my plans for 2012. Korea is definitely on but im not 100% sure bout Okinawa and Taiwan now. However, New Zealand is added into the list. Still, Im excited bout 2012 and leaving Singapore!!

Before i die, i wanna simply purchase an one-way ticket.

"Ask yourself this question: "Will this matter a year from now on?""
-Richard Carlson-

Life is too short to hate

2011-10-31T01:26:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Sam.C!

Spent the weekends revamping my room and now it has 1 super single+1 queen size bed. Awesome or what,, Le sigh

2nd week of school and work is piling up. AnnieYee expects a lot even if it is just tutorial. So every STMO and TRMK tutorial will be like a mini project presentation. Every group gets a solid 30minutes with comments on slide presentation and answers. Crazy or what. It is the 3rd week tml and i have to hand in assignments already. Awesome or what,, Le sigh

I realise life is simply too short to hate. As much as your presence irritates the hell out of me, im just gonna learn the art of ignorance and dont let you spoil my mood. If you treat me well, I will reciprocate. But if you treat me like hell, i simply wish karma strikes you soon.

Flu and cough for 2 whole weeks and it is not going away! zzz

Happy Halloween! Dinner with the ladies and early night home, i guess.

Emotions

2011-10-27T23:38:00.002+08:00

Life is a cruel reality.

I have lost the ability to blog. I need a translator that could translate my thoughts and emotions into words to fill this blank space. I miss Evangeline. I miss talking to her. 2nd week of school and still I wish it was holidays.

Entrepreneur.

Dont Judge.

2011-10-25T00:19:00.003+08:00

I have not made up my mind if i wanna lead a successful life or a moderate but carefree and experiential life. Therefore, my future is still a blur.

I cant wait for Wednesday. I need a PH!

Edit @ 1207
I just want to be out of here. I fit in here no more. I need the bed, the blanket, the coffee and the book in this rainy weather. Fuck my emotions.

Trauma

2011-10-23T17:47:00.003+08:00

Fuck im still not over about failing my tp by mounting a fucking curb!

First week of school is heavy! The assignments and projects and even tutorials are just heavy! Even IS which are meant to be fun and chillax are heavy!! Dang Needless to say, fyp is scary!! And we are meeting the client this coming Thursday!! (...) On a bright side, i like the new NgeeAnn! The classroom and Munch! It has MrBean and the best AyamPanggang!!! Yummmmmmmmmmmz I cant wait for school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha NOT.

Glee is on hiatus. PrettyLittleLiars has no news bout Episode 14. No korean drama that interest me. What to watch?????!

I love the sound of crashing waves and the end where it seems that the sky and the sea has met.

School shall be good for the whole of next week! Wednesday is a PH and I shall really settle down and get into the mood of school.

An email i will never ever sent

2011-10-18T02:22:00.004+08:00

"The greater the expectation, the deeper the disappointment."

Oh how true is the above statement. Never did i expect to fail by mounting a curb, therefore im so urghhhh with myself. Sigh, big sigh. But whatever. I shall remember to turn when my door is half out the vertical parking lot.

Time check - 0225. Brand new day, brand new mood. I shall attend school punctually! School shall be good.

Im addicted to JRice and KurtHugoSchneider!

Edit.
Time check - 0847. Just when im about to fall into deep sleep, the alarm rang. Whattheshit! I feel like shit now :l im kinda excited for class,, and meeting the classmates...

2011-10-17T17:51:00.000+08:00

Fuck i fucking failed my first tp. I got a fucking 14 passing grade but i mount that fuckup curb. Suckkk

i wish it is still holiday.

2011-10-11T23:44:00.001+08:00

One of the worst feeling ever. I really dont understand what is happening recently and my mood is like a roller coaster. Fuck whatever is happening in my life right now.!

Fuck, goodnight.

Life is about up and down

2011-10-11T00:26:00.003+08:00

Everyone has a dark side. I think mine is just getting darker ...

I kinda dislike you and you very much now. I have no idea why. And everything you do just pisses me off. I am just weird. Please ignore.

Last week of holiday, im treasuring this freedom very much!

I MISS YOU LUR JALYNCHAOSOH! ♥
I MISS YOU LUR EVANGELINE TAN!! ♥♥

I fear you

2011-09-30T01:06:00.001+08:00

Human beings are scary. In fact, the scariest creatures on Earth.

Korea, Japan-Okinawa, Taiwan-Taipei. Seriously keeping my fingers tightly crossed to fulfill this itinerary.

Too many thoughts

2011-09-25T04:35:00.000+08:00

Time: 0450
Mood: sober

Awake at this awkward timing and could not get back to sleep. Right now or rather these days, there are so many different thoughts in my mind and i just couldnt find the exact words to translate my thoughts.
I really find it really amazing how human can change be it good or bad after time. Le sigh Im currently stuck in one of those upanddown phase.

maybe i should go run at 6am like yesterday,,

2011-08-29T01:54:00.002+08:00

Time: 0328
Music: Faithfully - Glee Cast

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. What did i accomplish in the past 2 weeks?.
I, submitted my report on time.
I, snipped off my hair.
I, went to the museum.
I, ate squid ink pasta.
I, went for massage.
I, went to A Farmosa.
I, tried paintball.
I, conquered the 7m slide.
I, finished Glee season 1 & 2.
I, went for RWS MEMA's interview and I got the job.

Okay,,, i need to spice up this holiday!
1 week of freedom before i start work at MEMA. Actually, im kinda excited cos its a museum though its not those artsy museum... Still, its a museum!

Just back for night jogging with Spade. Imma start this night jogging routine with him since Hungry Ghost Festival is officially over! Mom keep reminding ive gained lots of weight during internship and i needa lose these fats before i can start hunting for good food! Cant wait for the seafood buffet with SammyLee and CherylWu! TskTskTsk

What shall i do tml. Shall i go Nex for Crystal Jade or shall i go and explore at Haw Par Villa or to the museum or just hit the gym in the morning then order pizza and watch SOAW! Ohmygod. Craving for Domino's pizza! I shall go to bed and forget about food!

Food is evil so is money!!!

money is evil

2011-08-19T13:33:00.000+08:00

time: 1344
i don't want office job. i don't want 9-6 job. i want flexible hour job. i want an interesting job! im probably one of the most picky employee!! ...

itinerary for next week : booked massage session for next mon! away from singapore from tue to thur! driving on fri!

seriously if only i have never-ending money,, sigh sigh sigh

2011-08-15T19:39:00.003+08:00

Time: 1940

Report still stuck at 0 word. HAHAHA Seriously, im just too excited to be doing report. But imma start right now, no more procrastination. No sleep tonight. I kinda miss the feeling of staying up all night just to meet deadline.

Time: 2345

Okay, procrastination struck and after 4 hours, i only have 71 words. When i have serious and important work to do, suddenly the tv has all the nicest movies and dramas. Ohmygod. Seriously, what will happen to me when school start! ...

I need to squeeze all my brain juices now and typed out the remaining 4000 words. May all the different religions' god(s) bless me!

Im a free soul

2011-08-15T01:18:00.003+08:00

Finally, i bid goodbye to my the place ive spend all my weekdays at. I do feels guilty bout wanting to leave so much after what they did for me. Still, im glad my 2months is here! Before i really get to unwind and relax, i need to hand in a 5000words final report by 16august aka tuesday aka i have 1 more day left to do. Dang! My brain is block and im just too excited to be doing my report!

Agenda for 15august2011:
1. Clear table
2. Have a daily to-do-list and accomplishment-list for these 2months
3. Finish report by 16082011 0230
4. Skip 500 times! I almost died after skipping for 100 times this afternoon!
5. Watch SOAW subbed! I can die for this OTP!

I shall not waste any of my holidays and make full use of them! Do what i wanna do instantly and procrastinate no more! I do not have "tomorrow" in my new life dictionary anymore :D

Anyway, im on Heello. Newer version of Twitter for all my dirty little secrets! HoHoHo

2011-08-10T00:38:00.002+08:00

Dear you,
At 0123, i thought of us. How we met in the weird situation and how we started to be use of each other and every other small details. How are you? I miss you a lil more tonight.
Love,
Me

6 months?

2011-08-07T21:44:00.002+08:00

If I only have 6 more months to live, will i cry and give up or will i be positive and treasure my last 6 months?

Finally, its the last week of my 6months internship. It still doesnt feels like my last week, probably the feeling will come on the last day? Haix, how should i feel then? No matter what, im still super duper wuper excited for my 2 months holiday! Im going to do lots of amazing stuffs and go on many exciting adventure!

New drama craze, finally! Scent of a Woman by Kim Sun Ah and Lee Dong Wook. Both are my fave actress and actor! And with the awesome plot and scenery from Okinawa, this is a must-watch drama!

Now, i feel like going to Okinawa too. I should really travel alone and meet someone on the way.

2011-07-25T07:53:00.000+08:00

confidence.

Depress Mode: 1000%

2011-07-23T12:02:00.003+08:00

Depress Mode = 1000%

After crying for 1 whole night, my eyes are puffy and tired. Ordered pizza to cure this depression!

@1754

2011-07-22T13:09:00.000+08:00

@1310
so full and tired right now. how am i going to survive the remaining 4 hours after lunch?...
i really wish there is a travelling job. i don't mind getting paid little or even no pay. they just have to cover my expenses while travelling. sigh big sigh bigger sigh

So Sick

2011-07-17T21:25:00.002+08:00

Im a GleeK
Watched 10 episodes in 1 day.
HAHAHA

Work is ordinary these days.
25 more days and i can bid goodbye.

Met Sam and Cheryl on Fri for Harry Potter! It is good but reading is just better. I expected more dramas at the death of Fred. And the fighting scenes to be more rahh! But overall, its good. Lots of humor in the last episode. Seriously, i think everyone should watch it! Even if you missed part 1 or have never seen a Harry Potter film.
Cant wait to get the CDs and have a marathon!
Then we went for kbox! Its been ages ages since ive visited one. We had fun and its nice hanging out with good old friends! :D

Sat was sleeping till late afternoon and dinner with family for maternal grandma birthday. I love the prawns, only. And 1st film with Evan on my Instax.! Love it absolutely. :D Then Glee to early morning.

Sun aka today equal a zombie me going for lessons in the morning and stone through the day in Gramp.

This week and the next 3 weeks may be a nightmare or whatever. I just cant wait for everything to be o.v.e.r.!

Contemplating to get a iPod Touch or wait for the release of iPhone 5...

2011-07-12T12:51:00.002+08:00

Im so amazed with myself! Ive endured 4 bloody months of hell and im still alive! Still, no feelings for the company and job scope. Maybe all i will really miss will be the friends ive made and the balcony.

I cant wait for these 31 days to pass by like an airplane and i will bid goodbye to here forever and ever. Im just not an office lady!

*Let time be quick, i dont mind wasting 1 month in return for my freedom*

*Urge to take leave and go home and visit the train tracks*

*Gotta curb these bad urge and save my leave for better purposes*

*Immune.*

I am no longer young

2011-07-11T21:27:00.003+08:00

2 days ago, im 18 years old.
and today, im 19! i feel old... :l

Thank you each and every well wishes ive received. This year birthday is simple and simple. Still, i enjoyed my day! After celebrating 19 years of birthday, i realise all i need is the wishes of families and close friend. I may not have every single friend's wish, and it is not as significant as before. Cos i have the genuine wishes from people who remembers my birthday by heart instead of fb notices. More doesnt equate to happiness. Sincerity and genuine greetings is what i want for the remaining years. Still, thank you every single one :)

This year, pop is the best. I was craving for tutukueh and he surprised me with 1 big bag of peanut and coconut flavour! I shall drown him in tiger beer for his birthday this year!

HarryPotter this friday :D
GEEEEEEEEEE motivation of the week!

2011-06-28T07:48:00.000+08:00

@0750
woke up 9mins earlier than usual but still left house at the usual timing. shall not waste my precious 9mins tml.
trying very hard not to be tempted to read lie to me ep15 transcript! ...
updating chocolurvestar as if its twitter cos i don't wanna flood my friends’ timeline with my depressed thoughts and mundane stuff. i really need some excitement in my daily life!!!

The fact

2011-06-27T22:29:00.000+08:00

metal > physical

2011-06-27T13:17:00.002+08:00

pre event is hard. event is hard. post event also hard. seriously just kill me!
when everything suck too much, i will sit at the balcony, look at the sky, blog and think bout this unsound world.
i survived so im gonna survive the remaining days. hard it may be but im gonna face it with a smile.

but i really have no energy and mood to pretend today. im mentally tired.

@2153
Finally replied Amirah's email. Not feeling so guilty now.
Last day of post show tml! Then im off to MIS! Finally 1 month of no brainer job and leaving work punctually! And 1 month of working with nice people. Life shall be good :)
Beside being positive, there is nothing else i can do to keep mi from enduring the remaining 1month plus.

After a long day at work, i really appreciate home and family. Oversea people, survive! imyall!

Aza Aza Fighting!

Still loving macbook keyboard the best.!

Bam Ratatata Tatatatata

2011-06-26T21:17:00.003+08:00

Taylor Swift's playlist on replay in the background
Amir gonna be thrilled.
HAHAHA

Last 47 days of routine life.
I will survive! Afterall, im still alive after complaining since the beginning of 2nd week. Haix. Looking back, i cant exactly say this whole experience suck. Because of this, i get go on-site and be part of the organiser team. I get to see the bts job of calling potential exhibitor, doing up badges and attending meetings. As much as the learning process is tough, im tougher to survive it all.
No more events, no more stress. Just helping with MIS and preparation of FCC. Things shall be good and i shall enjoy ttm.

27-06-2011 to 01-07-2011
Week to say goodbye to June and hello to July.
Please pass by quickly cos i cant wait to go for dimsum breakfast with family on the weekend. HOHOHO

Soon it will be Airport people's event. I know its tough before event with all the endless OTs and endless pile of work. Ive been through so i totally know how stress and tiring this period is. Hang on and endure and everything will be worthwhile when on-site. I will give yall all my moral support! :D I MISS YOU JALYN SOH! *you better read this* HAHAHA ♥

Edit@2229
1 more reason to respect and adore BigBang:
Even though DS is on suspension, BB doesnt split his part and cover it. They simply let the bgm do his part with his voice. I suppose other group would simply split and try to cover it. Hopefully DS is better now. *fingers crossed*

Lost in time

2011-06-26T00:39:00.002+08:00

Sick. Flu and cough and teary eye.
Someone please just chop off my nose. Ive already finish using 1 whole box of tissue!

less than 2months to 13August
sometime, time pass by too quickly
yet sometime, they simply stay stagnant.

Chocolurvestar is getting boring
and im preferring to write in my diary more
still, i wont abandon this special place

goodnight world.

2011-06-20T23:45:00.002+08:00

@2346
Been working since last Monday. Worked through sat and sun and it is finally the event day. This is totally different from SEAPEX. Double the work load, double the stress. But all these will be over soon and i will be free.
It is really comforting when people understand your plight. You dont even have to tell them and they simply understand what you have been going through. They are even so kind to give pointers how to survive the remaining torturous days and months.
I am really thankful to meet Vivian who coincidentally shares the same birthday as me. No wonder we clique i guess. We will soon be in MIS and we swear to leave office at 1730hrs sharp every single day! No more OT for life.
I am also happy to meet IDA people who are much friendlier and nice to work with. These meetings reminds me of SEAPEX days with Winnie and Val and Judy.
As much as this experience is tough, im glad i have met nice people who made this experience more memorable.

Checking out tml. I really miss home!

2011-06-19T08:29:00.000+08:00

@0830
on the cab. i miss home already. happy father’s day! i know what is the perfect gift for my dad already. ... BEER!! HAHAHAHA den we can drink and chill! shall buy when im back. :D

this week shall be good and fun hopefully. seriously not excited and not anticipating. im more afraid of the awkward silence when we in the room. luckily i brought books! bookworm for life.

wish mi luck. i don't wanna screw up!

Life philosophy

2011-06-18T08:01:00.001+08:00

@0813
not able to attend my niece birthday party is 500% more depressing than goin to work now. why must i let work take over my personal time?! screw this unfair and unsound world.

@2343
Packed and I'm so drained and tired. Gotta reach and check-in at 0900hrs. And I'm gonna be busy busy busy... Strangely, I'm nothing near excited. Hopefully the happiness will come tml.

I really think I'm kinda obvious with my emotions. When I'm happy, I will be all smiley. But when I'm sad, you will be able to tell easily. And praying does help! While going to work this morning, I was chanting and praying and wishing that I don't needa go down site today and will be able to go home on time for Shervonne's celebration. And! My wish seriously came true! I'm home in time for the celebration! Happygirl92 after all the depressing week(s).

Quote of the day, week, month:
"When the going gets tough, the tough gets going"
Credit to dear Evangeline! This shall be my life philosophy till I found other more meaningful ones.

I miss everyone who are once part of my life. I sincerely hope you people are doing well and staying happy.

2011-06-16T12:36:00.000+08:00

@1237
missed the lunar eclipse yesterday. and my head is hurting like nuts now. and i feel feverish. getting sick 2days before move down and 3days before event is no fun.
i shall sleep in during lunch to make sure i survive ot later.
night.

2011-06-15T21:40:00.002+08:00

@2140
Positive: 3 months and 2 days of intern had past and mbs this sunday
Negative: 58 more days and 3 more days in office

Please kill mi.

I dont wanna miss the Lunar Eclipse but i have work tml.
Im so gonna go star gazing at Science Center Observatory in one of the Friday after next week.!

2011-06-14T13:08:00.000+08:00

@1319
stomach cramp is killing mi. just wanna lie down straight and wrap myself in warm blanket.
office politic please leave mi out. i just want a peaceful internship. though sometimes what they said is true. i gotta stay non-judgmental.
definitely not ot-ing today. i miss goin home while the sky is still bright.
working is such a stress thing. all my stress are converted into pimples on my face! HELP~ :(
today marks the official third month im in the company. positive thought-3 months has gone~ negative thought-2 months more to endure~
give mi the strength and determination to pull through! aza aza fighting

A brand new week, a brand new start

2011-06-12T21:11:00.003+08:00

Dear diary

Last week is probably the worst ever. So many hardships and the only thing i could do was to hang on and endure. Many thanks to all who gave me the strength to move on be it texts, tweets or words. They meant a lot and i survived the week including working on Saturday. Now, i just cant wait for the event to be over. However, i know when im on-site, all these suffering will mean nothing.

Rascal Flatts - I wont let go playing in the background.

Talked a lot with Evan today. Everyone needs that someone he/she can always depend on. It dont have to be your special half, it can simply be your friend or cousin. I'm so bless to have a close cousin who is similar to me and always there to listen to my sorrows. We shall and must fulfil our childhood dreams.

13-06-2011 to 18-06-2011,
Please be kind to me. I know it is the last stretch to event and everything gonna be much more complicated and stressful but please let me survive. I still cant take these stress, it is like triple the amount of stress i felt during presentations, projects and exams. Please let everything be well and dont let me screw up anything! Please let saturday-moving down to be smooth too. I still gotta rush back to attend my niece birthday party!
Haix.

Why this life? Maybe it is a process to turn me into a much stronger person. I will endure and survive!

Depress and depress,
Chocolurvestar

PS Happy 12 Simyoksan! I miss you. A lot. Let's meet soon! I owe you 2 presents now!!

2011-06-11T08:03:00.000+08:00

@0818
depressed indicator: 500%

Don't judge me

2011-06-09T21:56:00.004+08:00

Dear diary,

I just deleted a whole paragraph of feelings bout today. Today is indeed the worst day of working. You wont know what I'm going through and definitely won't understand how I feel. Seriously, idk what am I working for. Just because it is part of my curriculum and I will be graded which will be crucial for my uni entry gpa so I need to put on a mask and be a 'good' intern. Haix, why must we live a life like this? A life structure past down from years ago, a life structure expected from every human being. I don't want to lead a normal typical life - work for the sake of working.

Why is it that every week there will be at least one day that I will have such feelings and be all depress and tired of this whole internship thing. Sick, sick, very sick!

Times like this, I appreciate my family even more! I miss all my friends even more! I have the urge to fly away alone. I have the urge to visit a councilor/psychiatrist. I feel uncertain bout my future. And all these thoughts scares me even more and more worries and concerns pop up.

May the brightest star in the night sky today bless me and that the remaining 65 days will be chill and cool. I am really stress and drained for the first time.

Depressed and lonely,
Chocolurvestar

Edit @ 2304
Just read through chocolurvestar starting from Jan posts till now. Can't believe I was once excited for intern.. After intern start, it is definitely a different story. Totally nothing like what I had expected. I broke down on 2nd week (loser me) and started counting down from 135 days twill now I'm left with 65. 70 days aka 2 months had past, what exactly did I accomplished?
Reflect~reflect

I shall head to bed now with an empty and peaceful mind. Finger cross that tml will definitely be a better day than 09062011.

I missed you and I drafted an email I know I will never sent.

2011-06-08T08:27:00.000+08:00

@0830
i have a bad feeling today. i think im goin to screw up some stuff but Idk wad.. :l Anw its wed already. 2 more working days and hopefully everything can be cleared on fri! i don't wanna come back on sat..
lean on me by glee cast playing. i miss Suzhou times when im learning this song!

Workaholic for the next 3 weeks

2011-06-05T00:08:00.003+08:00

Monday was depressing and i met the girls to chill.
Tuesday was busy and fast and i-cant-remember.
Wednesday was out for recce from 1030am didnt follow to site visit so stayed at Suntec and i finally meet Dawn and Daryl and Yujie! After 2months+++... I wanted to meet Jalyn for lunch after vipc recce. But plan just crashed! Haix, i miss my rainbow!
Thursday was busy cos had to finish wed and thur workload together!
Friday was busy but i already planned to leave at 1730 sharp cos im meeting C & S for gym and dinner. At 1700hrs, i was given work to be ready by the night. Totally spoil my plans, i thought it will be easy and i can escape before 1900hrs with Vivian. In the end, i OT and left at 2100hrs. Met them for MOS and NTUC for SaraLee~ and NestleBLiss! Home, bathe and met YJ for 2nd NTUC trip. HAHAHA It is a secret for some special people.

Next 3 weeks im prepared to be busy like a bee and OT like a workaholic and work in the day like a zombie. Major events and minor events really has a difference.

im so drained. i shall head to bed and i still have driving tml. Shopping at Gmarket when yall half asleep is not good cos everything just seems cheap and pretty before you realise, your cart is loaded!

1st post-intern event: A Farmosa 23-25Aug
I need more plans! I have 2 full months to enjoy~

@2203
No energy and i shall head to bed not if i dont wanna have a blue monday tml.
06-06-2011 to 11-06-2011
Work shall be good to me though i foresee OT(s) already
&even have to come back on saturday!
I will survive!
12-06-2011 i shall meet simyoksan cos its our 4th anniversary!
&her belated 19th birthday!
Anticipate the weekends when weekdays are not even here.
Goodnight.

2011-06-04T17:43:00.000+08:00

@1755hrs
letter k represent the end of conversation. i know.

2011-05-31T07:55:00.001+08:00

@0805
standing at the exact same spot on train as yesterday.
song playing: take it slow
i seriously wonder what these people are working for? aren't they sick of it? they gonna lead this routine life till retirement? etc etc etc
song changed to happy. seriously my playlist is like a mood player. we all need to take it slow and be just be happy.
aim: find happiness in working

@1406
manager just came back with my food. today is a slow and calm day. not much work~ i can't wait for tml recce!! &&&I just read lie to me ep7 transcript! can't wait to watch tonight!! definitely not ot-ing today!!

2011-05-30T07:55:00.002+08:00

standing by the train window. i wake up this morning feelin really depress and have the urge to skip work but still managed to pull myself out. why am i leading this routine life? im really sick and disgusted and feel like breaking down and just cry. i don't even know why i feel like crying! this is so frustrating! and i still have 2 months plus?! why can't our internship be only 5weeks? i can't say that i learnt totally nothing through these internship days but it is enough already!! so sick of this routine life, i just wanna escape.

still, 30/5/2011 - 3/6/2011
please be good to mi. i can't take this stress 3 weeks before event! all the gods please bless mi. i don't want to be a loser who can't survive internship though i did think of possible reasons to tell michaelchiam that i wanna end my internship now.

so i spent half of march, april and may working. i hate 2011..

edit@1320
seating at the balcony enjoying the breeze and sky. maybe all i will miss in the end will be the balcony. only.

edit@2141
met the girls at holland v for a quick chill session
if only the night can go as long as we want
and we can talk and reminisce the good old times
as if there is no work and no exams
looking back, we are really a bunch of anti-socials band geeks
who only stick to ourselves even though we are in different class after sec 2
no doubt that secondary life is the best memories till now
poly is great too, i love and miss my friends
but it is just different
i miss everyone that were once in my everyday life!

DRAMAS KRAZE

2011-05-29T01:10:00.002+08:00

HoHoHo New drama addiction!
After Secret Garden, no drama has this big effect on me again
Not that 49 days is not good, but it is just different!
Presenting ... Lie To Me by Yoo Eun Hye and Kang Ji Hwan!

Their chemistry seriously!
And the plot!
And the other supporting casts!
Episode 6 just blew me off!
Cant wait for every Tuesday and Wednesday now, provided im off work on time and have the energy to watch!

As for City Hunter by Lee Min Ho and Park Min Young
... ... ... I almost fell asleep while watching ep 1!
Maybe i will not continue like My Princess?
We shall see!

Omgggg! Evangeline got a Polaroid as present!!
Im so so so jelly!!!
Cant wait to get mine though!!
WHAT SHALL I GET!!!!
EXCITED EXCITED
Then we can buy films in bulk and snap snap snap!
:D

Dilemma

2011-05-28T19:44:00.003+08:00

Why does Saturday always past by so quickly? Before i even realise, it is already night time. Then its time for bed, and Sunday is here. And before im recharged for a long week, Sunday is gone~
Really really really really really very sick of this routine already! Always dreading Monday(s). Even so now that event date is nearing, im feeling the stress again! The stress of ensuring everything is accurate cos this is a REAL thing and not just school project.. OTs, lack of sleep, etc etc etc etc
I still have 2months plus! If only i can fast forward time,

If everyone will die eventually..
Why bother working? Why bother earning so much money when you may not even be able to use it?
We should just enjoy ourselves and age gracefully!

Dilemma.

Sis is flying off to Shanghai later for work. I wish i can fly off too. Without any reasons, but just to travel and explore.
My new ambition: Explorer!

Meeting is like an art of war

2011-05-25T22:12:00.003+08:00

My 1st official meeting at M** with I**.
Unlike previous meeting whereby its just 1 on 1, which is easy and simple and chill
This is totally intense
Not office's meeting room but a big set-up meeting room with proper setting and agenda list
Everyone is representing their own company fighting for their own benefits and protecting themselves
People involved are discussing and rebutting continuously
While people not involved just give that "wth am i here" face
I find it kinda interesting at least

I enjoyed the recce and touring part best
Skypark @ 57 is really pretty both in day and night
While they are discussing bout breakfast at The Club, i simply move away to the window and enjoy the sea view
I really adore the sea!
Everyone is complaining bout the ugly construction view Gardens by the Bay
But i manage to overlook it and enjoy the view
I really should live by the sea!

Walk here walk there
Explored the exhibition and meeting area as well as hotel side
Hopefully during event, i wont get lost!
Also ride on a buggy and saw Hummer and Rolls Royce buggy
Got a name card though i had none while they were busy exchanging contacts

This is an experience
Lucky i attended, if not i will always think that meeting is a fun thing from all i had attended before
Rather than something that drains me mentally and physically

&I ~~flipped~~.
Okay, im crushed now!
What a day~

Nvm, i shall go get high and watch Lie To Me ep 6!

The sky is in a pretty shade

2011-05-22T21:21:00.003+08:00

This weekend pass by too fast.
Before im recharge, its all over.
Every weekdays, i pray for weekends
And on every weekends, i pray that it will be August soon!
I miss my once-wonderful-carefree-and-stress-free-life

Saturday was awesome
2 movies, shopping and 4am mac breakfast!
Sunday was zombie for mi
Im so dead tired now

23-05-2011 to 27-05-2011
Back to 5-days work week
Please let me survive and let the work come in slowly as scheduled
Hope wednesday recce and meeting will goes as plan
And hopefully in a blink of end, weekends will be here again

The sky is in a pretty shade tonight
Not the typical sky you see everynight
Its a lil blue and pink and orange and its so clear you can see the clouds
This is not a sign right?.

Interim Report, Please Kill Me

2011-05-19T19:54:00.001+08:00

HOHO
49 days then back to report.
Read the transcript during work and I cant wait till tml!
Life Motto: Report can wait but dramas cant!

Hopefully, i will be full of inspiration later :)

Adrian Kings

2011-05-18T22:04:00.004+08:00

I finish Beastly ebook within 2 days.
Its my type of romance plot and its kinda short
I fell in love for Adrian Kings
He is so perfect even though he is beastly
But in my imagination, he is a handsome dude with a good heart who will read what the girl had read and also build a greenhouse full of roses
The book is 100%plus100% nicer than the movie.
Alex pettyfer is not even beastly.
Vanessa Hudgens is also not the girl i imagined.
Book is the perfect getaway for me and my brain :)

Watched Lie To Me episode 4!
OMG, im already addicted to the show!
Cant wait for next week's episodes!
KangJiHwan is kinda gayyyy~ HAHAHA
So different from he is in Coffee House
On a sad note, 49 days last 2 episode this week.
I really hope HanKang will end up with JiHyun!
But i kinda hope JiHyun soul will stay in YiKyung body cos she is prettier and more compatible with Kang.
Lets see how it goes

Back to report...
im seriously still at 100 words!
i really dunno how to continue!
i lost the power of crapping for report!
Please enlighten me someoneeeeeeee!
Maybe i should go sleep and skip kickboxing tml.

PS Work is getting busy = time pass faster without me noticing = pray for no OT

I LOVE FLOUR

2011-05-17T20:41:00.004+08:00

OHMYFUCKINGGOD!
Someone please just kill me!
Im so 100%plus100% not productive today!
I was suppose to finish by Interim Report by today
And im still staring at the 100 words left from last night...
Seriously, im so !!!

On a bright note,
I cleared my table once again
It is so neat now :)
And i caught up with the cyber world
Watched 2am's Love Escort, Lie To Me, Infinity Challenge
HoHoHo
Cant get enough!
Needs to start Misfits, HIMYM and Vampire Dairies SOON!

18-05-2011 to 20-05-2011
Be good to me and pass by like an aeroplane
I dont mind having work but please not all work load come at the same time
And i seriously dont want OT.
And please give me the determination and motivation to complete my report by tonight or latest tml!
I still need let my Manager read before I can final edit and submit on Friday!

Haix, back to report
im so full yet i still crave for food
I suckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!
And And And i need to buy earphone!!!
My earphone only left side have sound...
Suck to only have 1-side of music while travelling on public transport!

PS I miss Swiss Bakery soup-spoon alike bread!
PPS Taeyang birthday tml. 생일축하해
PPPS im wearing Ottoman shirt! I miss the classsssssssssss!

Edit.
Just downloaded new songs and Beastly ebook!
imma forget bout report~ and head to bed
And definitely promise to complete tml night after 9 hours of work...

I love my mom

2011-05-08T21:48:00.003+08:00

1. Slack weekdays
2. Eventful weekends
3. I need to reply emailsssssss
4. I miss tumblr
5. Happy Mother's Day

9/5/2011 to 13/5/2011
After 2 weeks of 4-day work week, back to 5-day work week.
Please be good to me and let me LOVE working!
I will do my part and survive well!
Cant wait for Friday!!!

Goodnight, im shutting down

i can't believe!

2011-05-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

1. i can't believe im gonna spend half of 2011 doing something i don't like and wasting my precious time
2. i can't believe im driving on the road though its already # lesson! its amazing
3. i can't believe its already May!

i can't sleep but i need to sleep now! if not im so gonna regret the very moment my alarm rings~ i can't wait for the weekends to come! GE, date with 2 shorties and early mother’s day! why on earth is there weekdays and weekends?! if only there is only weekends,, this gonna be a better place for you and for mi!

You and I = Nothing from the start

2011-05-02T19:55:00.003+08:00

1 whole week of work without Manager is chillax
Finish some task and waiting replies for some
Back to work tml *dread*
Luckily this week is 4 days work week!
Hopefully they will pass by quickly and imma meet the 2 shorties on Saturday!
HoHoHo

Seriously, this is the 1st time im so appreciative of labour day public holiday as a worker and not a student
im so grateful for this ph!
omg, i really cant imagine life of an OL forever...
I miss school! Sincerely deep from my heart!

3/5/2011 to 6/5/2011
Please be good to me!
I know i know i will survive!
Back to early night and early morning.
FML

PS I really really still cant believe and is not over the fact that i am gonna be spending my time working for half of 2011! IM WASTING MY TIME D:
Its May already. August, please come quickly!!!!

PPS I cant wait to buy my Instax and maybe a Holga too! KEKE ^^

Do Not Disturb

2011-04-24T15:30:00.002+08:00

1. Driving for 2 hours straight drains me out
2. Eating honey star makes me feel young again
3. The weather nowadays makes me feel so lazy and tired and dont wanna leave my aircon room
4. Ever since intern start, im eating double serving everyday (...)
5. I ... dont know what else to write

...
My boring life~

25-04-2011 to 29-04-2011
Please be good to me!
Manager not around so let me finish all my tasks by Friday
I will survive

I wont let go

2011-04-17T21:17:00.004+08:00

Rascal Flatts - I wont let go

18/4/2011 to 21/4/2011
Please be good to me!
Its only 4days this week, so!
Let me survive in the cold office~

In the mood to watch some teary movie
imma go watch Hachiko!

PS i sense monday blue tml

Edit.
Plan fail, did not even start on Hachiko
im going to sleep
if not tml's blue will be the darkest shade!

What a breakup feels like

2011-04-16T14:19:00.002+08:00

Mundane week staying in office
Doing up budget, requesting for quotations, preparing for meetings and I issued my first PO!
Seriously cant wait for CMMA and BCA to happen
Cos it means 1 month+ to end of intern!

Yoksan is back today :)
Cant wait to see her!

HTHT and swam with my mom
And i seriously dunno what makes her think im attached!
im sucha single lady~

Im still so not over Wednesday.
Whenever i pass by lakeside, i will automatically think of the Silver and smile to myself

Sunday, please pass by slowly!

Seriously!
Who are you!

13thApril2011 - Silver

2011-04-13T18:37:00.003+08:00

13thApril2011, Wednesday
Band no. 152 - Silver
This moment is so precious,
they've finally gotten what all the seniors have ever wanted
they've shown those who look down on us that we can do it too
they've prove that we are no longer a bronze band!
I miss being part of them, playing my trombone.

Edit.
Listening to Memories of Friendship
This is the ideal song to describe the post-syf feeling
I wish i had the chance to play through once too
Back to reality, work at 830am tml.
Who is ready? Fucking not mi!

Though we've gotten bronze, silver, gold at 3 different competitions
This silver means so much more than the others including the gold
Afterall, people judge with syf awards
Some says that these awards mean nothing,
deep down, you and i know that they do mean something
and everyone strive for the best
and one will never be contented with just a bronze etc

They are the silver batch, but we are still the foundation sil-batch
HoHoHo
If only, we are the ones who got this silver in year 2007 syf

Today is an awesome day!
These people are the ones i missed most
They are the one whom i spent my craziest times with
I miss secondary school life~

Cancer + Taurus

2011-04-10T22:42:00.002+08:00

11/04/2011 - 15/04/2011
Please be good to me.
I will do my best and survive work!
And enjoy my Wednesday and weekends.
May my friends be happy while working this week too!

I love Sunday(s)
Eat, Movie, Eat, Swim, Eat, HTHT
How great can my Sunday be!
Missed graveyard this morning
Sorry waigong.
I will wake up earlier next year!

Finish ep8 of 49days
and imma go sleep!

I hate this love song, you stupid liar!

PS 12April on Tuesday, but yoksan is still at Suzhou

I dont mind having a pet giraffe

2011-04-09T19:51:00.002+08:00

Proper Update
Monday to Thursday, i was on site - Orchard Hotel.
All the delegates, committee, speakers badge were made by mi.
I feel good seeing them wearing it and matching all the faces to the familiar names ive been doing on excel for the past 3 weeks.
Little interaction with the committee and speaker but i made friend with Andy Kitts, he is like my grandfather? :)
Adrienne Pereira is also a nice lady i talk to alot through the 4days.
I also made friends with the temp staffs hired by Judy - Val, Wynnie, Jabez and the 2 pair of sisters.
Strangely, on the last day when bidding goodbye,
I felt that my bond with judy, val, wynnie and jabez is stronger than my manager and mi.
It is as if there is an invincible barrier between us.
I guess this is what superior and subordinate means.
Going home at ~11pm almost everyday is tiring
But i feel happier on site
At least, i dont need to stay in my cubicle.
Orchard Hotel serves good food too!
Breakfast, coffee break, lunch and after party all serve by them!
I miss everything.

Friday was back to office.
Boring.
Compiling and admin work and clearing of emails.

Woke up at 9am today. Text Sam. Fell alseep. Lunch&Bath. Met Nuz. Shop for steamboat. Dinner-Steamboat! Lappy.
Boring saturday, and i dont feel recharge yet.
Sunday, pls pass by slowly
Monday and Tuesday, pass by like an aeroplane
And Wed, im gonna meet the band members :D
With their hopes so high, i hope they will get what they want.

Maybe i should go travel alone, if ys cant make it this September.

2011-04-09T00:05:00.003+08:00

Hazelnut Loacker and a carton of milk and a tub of ice cream and waffle is what i need now.
im so tired yet i cant sleep.
im suddenly so depress and feels so empty.

Proper update tml.

If i have 24hour before i die,
i want to see the sun rise.
i want to eat a sinful yummy chocolate cake.
i want to watch a romance comedy alone.
i want to ride a bike.
i want to write my last letter.
i want to read through chocolurvestar.
i want to burn all my secrets.
Then i will die in peace.

A Fool's Only Tear

2011-04-03T01:48:00.002+08:00

With regards to what i posted previously, the post below
I have no comments.
I knew the news on 1stApril = April Fool's Day = ITS A FUCKING PRANK = im a fool
Though there is NO worldtour, STILL!
THEY ARE FUCKING COMING~!!!
we gonna breathe in the same air again on July15!
im definitely going, i dont wanna be depress all alone at home again!
2NE1 is confirmed, i hope the other bands will be...
SHINee, CNBlue, MissA, 2AM, 4MEN :D
I dont need suju,snsd or whoever~

This week is good! It past by peacefully.
Though im still bored and can do nothing to make these 5months pass by faster
At least, i finish all my preparation for monday as according to schedule
And i survive this week with 2OTs
I hope monday's registration and programme will just flow smoothly and have no sudden changes etc

Weekends are good as usual.
Caught up with the cyberworld starting from 9 early in the morning
cos i can no longer sleep long hours thanks to waking up at 630am every weekday!
Caught a flick - Morning Glory
I love Rachel McAdams! And the story plot is awesome!
Actually, becoming a Executive Producer is not bad too
Watched SweetPotatoCouple last episode
Cried even if its not subbed.
After today, there is no more reasons to watch WGM
I dont like Khuntoria couple and the 2 new couple...
Need to find an alternative!!!

04042011 - 08042011,
Please be good to me!
I will try my best to enjoy and survive :)
After next Friday, i can proudly declare "IFUCKINGSURVIVE1STMONTHOFINTERNSHIP!"
And that means im left with 4months.
And in no time, these 4months will pass by and i will be enjoying my well-deserve holiday
im definitely leaving Singapore
Even if its Malaysia or wherever!
Then back here again, look for a job and start saving for my post-graduation trip in 2012
I kinda want to intern/PT at a wedding planning/dress shop!

BIGBANG IS COMING BACK!!!

2011-04-01T12:48:00.003+08:00

OMYGOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BIGBANG IS OFFICIALLY COMING BACK FOR THEIR OWN CONCERT
WORLDTOUR~WORLDTOUR!
This totally made my day though im mad tired now and still confirm have OT later.
I still thought it is an April Fool joke by CHERYLWU!
kekeke
who's going?!
i dont wanna miss this again!
Just in case, 2012 really is the end...

The office is extremely cold today
My hands are freezing while typing and doing my work
Even my hot water turn cold within minutes

Coincidentally met yujie when going up PioneerMRT
I was seriously so happy
Like finally i meet someone i know after 3 weeks?!
I miss the class so much!!
If only weekend fly pass faster!
...

1253pm from HERE

135 more days

2011-03-31T12:57:00.002+08:00

Third week of work still not bad
Cant wait for the weekends though!

I just relied HannahBanana's email
Everyone has their own problem
Its just whether you wish to share or not
I, do tell my problems to chocolurvestar and friends and maybe my mom
but i dont tell all unless i really cant take it
Cos sometime its a problem but i dont think it is
...
But i feel ____ when people tell me their problems
It is like they trust me and I like it
haix, i dont even know what im typing

Cant wait for weekends!
And Monday - onsite :)

Lets survive the remaining 135 days

PS i haven ask if i can apply leave on 13thApril!
*Finger Cross*

2011-03-28T22:09:00.001+08:00

You are like my second grandfather
Since young, you treated me just like your grandchildren
Or even better.
You and ahhmm made my childhood life full
Thank you for everything

RIP ahpei♥

6 years and counting

2011-03-28T21:17:00.002+08:00

Happy TNFs Day!
6 years ago, Ladie N and MsArtee came to us and declare us as TNFs
6 years later, graduated from ycss
we are still TNFs

I miss our laughter back in the old band room, old classroom and our second home
Due to different commitment and priority, its hard to fix a time all 7 of us can make it
Still, we needa keep meeting even if its once a year okay!
Somehow, the familiar feeling will always be there
I miss the 7 of us as a whole!
Even if now, we are not that close, i still love TNFs! ♥

Looking back, idk what will happen if i had not met these 6 girls
if i had not join band
i may not be the ANGWANTENG i am now.
during ycss days, they are the one im close to
they are the one i sticked to
they are the one by my side through ups and downs
they are the one i fought with
they are the one i bitched with
they are the one who supported me
they are the one who cried with me
if not for them, time in ycss may be just as miserable as it is working now :l
6 years later, they are still the one i stick to
the one who i pour out my sorrow to
the one to listen to my complains
the one who are by my side when times are hard
though not all 6, but at least 3.

ILOVEYALL VERY VERY MUCH ♥
I WANT YALL TO BE HAPPY! ♥

I adore weekends. I dread weekdays

2011-03-27T20:09:00.002+08:00

Loser me broke down at the second week of work
No comments but i seriously hate working life
Especially working in an office environment
But i shall, need, must survive the remaining 139 days
This gonna affect my cumulative GPA = if i can still go uni!
Die also must pull through!

I officially love Saturday!
Seriously, its the best day of the week!
I slept till 自然醒
I ate lots of yummy food
I bake cupcake which turn out to be cookies...
I went Jurong Hill!
So eventful!
Cant wait for the next saturday to come~

28/3/2011 to 1/4/2011,
please be good to me
and not let me feel depress
and have the urge to get mc to skip work!
i got an event in the following week
&i need to finish all my work on time!

I REALLY HAVE THE URGE TO FLY OUT OF SINGAPORE
I FOUND A LOT OF COOL ISLAND(S) AROUND PHUKET BUT NOT PHUKET
ITS THOSE PEACEFUL ISLAND THAT NO PEOPLE WILL GO UNLESS THEY ARE IN FOR NATURE
AND CLEAR BLUE SEA PERFECT FOR SNORKELING AND SLEEPING ON HAMMOCK
WITH ZERO SHOPPING AND GOOD FOOD
BUT MAYBE PAYING A NEIGHBOUR FAMILY TO HAVE A MEAL :)

I feel appreciated if anyone tells me about their problem. This shows that they trust me.

2011-03-25T23:36:00.003+08:00

Results are fine
im always within that range
BUT! HBM suck big time
Lucky, no more AndyOh's module.
And, i really think law is perfect even if you dont attend lectures :)

im surviving work
Thanks for all yall concern ♥
but still, i miss school and my friends!
And, the library and canteen(s) and Blk72&56!

TGIF~
Gonna sleep till 自然醒
Do some work and study FTT!
I dont wanna fail again on Monday!!!

PS Talking on facebook with SIMYOKSAN
I WANNA GO FIND HER AT SUZHOU LUR
MISS THE FOOD, SHOPPING, WEATHER AND PRICE

FUCK OFFICE AND CORPORATE WORLD

2011-03-24T12:43:00.004+08:00

141 more days to freedom!

Seriously, im sick of my job already!
1st week was still fun!
im sick of it on 2nd week's Thursday!
i dread the arrival of 3rd week.

Everyone live according to rules
I too, but i create my own rules out of those rules
NP expects 100% attendance but only debar 80% and below
My rule: max 80% attendance
I hate the fact that i cant create my own rules within the company's rule
They dont even debar the employees.
And i only get 3 fucking day of leave.
I dont like to seat in my cubicle everyday
This is not what i had expected from an events company
i thought it was chocolates and lollipops but it end up like bubblegum?
Seriously, i will rather study than work in an office
im quite firm that i will never work in an office again unless its my own company
And ive come to a new conclusion of what im gonna do after poly
I will travel with whatever money i have.
Then, back and i will continue studying.
Local or oversea, i will attend uni
Then, i will try to work while studying
Then the money can be use for more travelling or even my own business

i want my fucking life back
now, i dont touch my lappy till weekends
cos i need wake up at fucking 630am every weekday!
and i dont get home till its at least 7pm!
i dont like this boring life of mine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg, why does the others look so fine with their internship?????!
or is it only me?.
I also miss wearing shorts and t-shirts and slippers!
i fucking hate heels, flats, skirts etc etc etc

I dont mind working for others but i dont like working for others

if only once i wake up, everything is just a dream
and im back to 7years old in CPS

2011-03-18T13:56:00.001+08:00

This is a post from my work laptop
im bored. i got nothing to do. i want to go youtube!!!
The office is getting empty cos they loading stuff to site
But, there are still people around me.
HAIX

I miss my laptop so much!
Work has drained mi out so much!
And i did not even book my driving lesson!
SUCK SUCK SUCK
how am i going to survive these 5months?!

Dead Tired

2011-03-15T22:18:00.003+08:00

2nd day of work and I wish I can go back to study even if there is no holiday
I love my cubicle and the fact that I'm alone away from my manager :)
She is a good boss and she is so patient with me!!
I will keep ask her to keep repeat cos i don't understand what she is talking about :l
And! I've wasted so many paper and ink cos I keep print wrongly
HAHAHA it's just an experience

Apart from work, I super love this week!
Cos! I finally finally got my tae yang concert + big bang album!
And! I'm meeting Evangeline+the babes!
I miss school thoughnand my classmates!!
And those oversea! I bet they are enjoying the slow pace life
I just got my first email from Amirah the Moon :)
Glad that they are doing well and missing me!
HAHAHA

Haix,
Needs sleep snow if not I will not be able to wake up tomorrow.
If only I cambering iPad to work...
What shall I wear tml?...

I cried like a baby

2011-03-11T23:08:00.002+08:00

3 things that can make me cry within seconds:
Death, Separation, Love
Weesuan, Hannah, Amirah left today
6months is really really long
Its not just 5weeks!
But 6months!!...
I miss my Muslim friends!
Please take good care of yourself and enjoy ttm!!!
KEEP IN CONTACT!!!

im so sleepy after crying so much.
Goodnight world!

Officially broke now

2011-03-11T00:53:00.002+08:00

Been out everyday since Monday
Enjoying my last week of freedom before internship to the max
But at the same time, im going broke D:
Now my closet is half ready for formal!

Weesuan,Amir,Hannah flying off tml
HAIX. . .

Maximum Capacity

2011-03-04T10:47:00.002+08:00

My brain max cap is till Hospitality Law only!
I hope i wont be the only one doodling again later.

Cos you're amazing, just the way you are

2011-03-02T05:45:00.003+08:00

My mind and body is amazing as how it is.
They can auto-tune to exam days when they automatically knows that i have to wake up the minute the alarm rings.
But why only on exam days??
AMAZING MIND!

Ive been awake since 430AM.
GOD BLESS MI!
KEKEKE

EDIT.
HBM paper is o.o
Since its over, im not gonna be depress over it
TLAW, how to conquer you?
While typing this, im staring out the from window time to time
Enjoying the breeze and mind blank.
There are some night where you wish to do nothing but just stare out the window and look far ahead
I hope this week will pass by slowly
Next week, so many people gonna fly away!

im gonna study till 10pm
&start watching Disney-The Lion King

PS Thank you pop♥

2011-03-01T21:53:00.002+08:00

HOLYMAMA!
I signed up for Kickboxing with sis+cheryl and friend
KEKEKE
Cant wait for my 1st lesson!

Studied over at Evan's
QUITE productive
At least i did read all the notes.
Now, i just feel like shutting my eye
&hope i will still remember all these notes and formulas tml morning.

IF ONE DAY I EVER MEET TAEYANG ON THE ROAD,
IM GONNA KEEP CALM AND ACT AS IF IDK HIM!
HAHAHA

Hello March

2011-02-28T19:22:00.003+08:00

March gonna be a happening month!
Exam, post-exam activities, internship for life!

I understood why my sis says grades starts to drop after 1st sem.
This time, i really really s.l.a.c.k.
But, i still manage to finish my notes
But totally zero confidence for Tlaw.
Gotta start studying after this post.

Hello all my friends,
please stay happy and smile everyday!
I miss yall.
I hate school!

Mugging Mode!

Friends Forever

2011-02-27T02:08:00.002+08:00

This song made me tear so much
Through my secondary years, BAOC time ...
I miss TNFs and the class.
The old us when we are so happy to meet each other everyday
And everyday we have something exciting to look forward
Am i really getting old?

Will it the 3 of us?

2011-02-25T15:06:00.003+08:00

TLAW is officially driving me crazy!
I attended the revision lecture, took notes, highlight loads of stuff
BUT! i cant freaking remember why i highlight and what am i writing!!!

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
im eliminating so much for TLAW
HAHA
KILL MI KILL MI!

Edit.
Thoughts in my mind now:
What is Tlaw about
Will i fail law
Will i retain and cant go for internship D:
To study or to go on bed
Shall i fake sick and dont go for exam

To be continue . . .

2011-02-24T13:14:00.001+08:00

WHAT IS RIGHT AND WHAT IS WRONG
HAHAHA im addicted to the songs already!
How to survive 2 weeks before the album reach mi?!!
HAHAHA
I still got FTT and final next week
I doubt i will survive
im all plug in and living in the BB world

WISH MI LUCK!!!
&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&im freaking freaking tempted to buy TY Hoodieeeeee

2011-02-24T00:27:00.002+08:00

HOLY!
I guess i really cant sleep tonight!!!
BB new songs on replay
&&&I cant wait for BB+TY Solar to reach mi like SOON?!
I guess i wont be able to sleep tonight
BUT i have FTT+driving tml
&im suppose to finish Tlaw notes yesterday but i didnt
And i haven touch HBM at all...
im so so so fucking dead!

AND! I manage to convince mom to give mi $200
KEKE
I ROCK!!!

D-1

2011-02-23T13:52:00.003+08:00

D-1 BigBang Comeback
Excited much!!!
Gotta pre--order for the album later
And wait patiently for the release online

Even though there are only 2 papers for this sem,
i have a very very very bad feeling!
*BLESS ME*
Conquer TLAW+HBM!

Its boring staying at home everyday.
I miss the class
Shall go somewhere to study tml!

AND! FTT tml!!!
I WANNA PASS IN 1 TRY!!!

Edit
I think in one day 24hours,
I used 12 hours for sleeping.
2 hours for studying.
And the rest on lappy
My attention span for studying is only from 2pm - 4pm
미쳤어
I still have FTT D: